He knew not much happened
By staying quiet
Although he urged himself
To try it once
To lay down
There by her side
With desire to confide
To show that he was sincere
Not with doubt or fear
For here he was clear
He hoped silence
Might shear
Her last…
His shift
Into the kindly curse of verse
Was the first certain line
The most demonstrative sign
That he was becoming redefined
The writing was on the wall
He had to make the call
He would rise
He would fall
But always
Yes, always and forever
He would always, yes
…
He wanted to grow
To grow into another life
Without doubt he knew
That his current store of angst
Was way too high
He paced
Without face
He retraced all his options
He lived out in the sticks
Yet had found his hits
In the clicks of art
Of culture
His desire was to rearrange his life
To extract the strife
Which had brought down
The darkness
To set aside the rife depressions
Which had incisively
Parked themselves
Into his restless mind
He knew he was being unkind
But he had to find out more
He had to explore
He…
With time he lost his sense
He lost his sense of shame
He was so deeply in the game
His defences no longer came
With any thoughts of risk
Lust
Wrapped with limitless love
Was his only fix
Cruel with tricks
He was driven
He sought out not to be…
There to dream
For to dream seemed the only way
Yet, on those business trips away
He relayed his delayed gratification
Night and day
His mind began to play
He sent her cards
Which he hoped would sway
Her pure, oft repeated quip:
Are you sure
Are you sure
Are…
He wrote her senseless words
Quite absurd to talk of work
To edge his position
When to touch
Was his fairly robust
Realised reverb
He stirred himself so deep
He fought
But almost lost his keep
At night-times
He paced off into sleep
He was in, he was way over
He was in, he was way over
He was no more
The lonesome rover
No more to grovel or scream
He was
In among the richest of seams
He knew that this would mean
That everything
Oh yes, oh yes
Absolutely everything
Everything…
Oh no, oh yes; oh but no
Oh but yes
Then, as if from nowhere
She showed herself
His wealth was reborn
She played down her trip to town
Said that it was a mistake
Somehow one date too many
But anyway
She was here, she was now
She wanted…
He talked of fear, of risk
He described her heavenly kiss
A kiss placed so so softly
By the sweetest of lips
He protected her, he indulged her
He lost her to the night
He committed
To those wild excesses
Of lovers who sulk
He was high, he was low
…
words often hidden from ones inner self
