In Times Which Seem Like Self-Psychotherapy He Says To Himself:
Oh, Vienna
Novel: Times 1–4, Chapter 42
I spoke out loud to you this morning
Two weeks have gone by since the countdown began, two solid weeks of my waiting, and my longing, to see you; yet I note from my calendar that there are still sixty-one days to go to our meeting. My original workings, which came to eight weeks until our son’s potential move, must have included some error, or miscalculation.
I have miscalculated many things; indeed for a more than competent mathematician, my human, social, and psychological workings-out, have often fallen way short of the mark. Impatience is possibly a major factor in my reaching fragile, unstable, or unrealisable outcomes.
I know that rushing leads to mistakes, yet when my blood rushes I don’t seem to be able to steady myself. You made my blood rush, you know that don’t you. You made my blood rush when we were close together. You made my blood rush when we were far apart. You still make my blood rush, you do know that now, don’t you.
What is it about my writing that stimulates my circulation, what is it in my choice of words that causes my internal excitement. How does my psychological excitement lead to my physiological excitement; is it of…
